Confused,Trapped, Surprised but Encouraged

In the mid of the misery of expectations
In the helplessness, that's called hope
In the warmth of a past that is young,
In a silence, that is lonely, lovely, lively.
But
I am Confused.

Roosting behind doors, half open,
Listening to a quietness,
Awake in the sleeplessness,
when the sun sleeps, surrendered to dreaming.
However
I am Trapped.

Looking up from Screens, looking around
There are people doing the same
smiles waiting to be spilled,
seeing them fighting for a cause,
useless and spoiled
So
I am Surprised.


When love seems a trivia,
When pride says, there's no wisdom in defeat
In the triumph of being fallen, frozen,
And yet, curling and blackening in a flame,
That's ever glowing.....inside.
In a way
I am Encouraged.

I cannot be myself anymore

I cannot be myself anymore

In the name of winning,
In the name of survival,
In the name of practicality,
I have lost myself somewhere...

I'm running fast
I'm running hard
But, am I running in the right path?
I cannot stop to think
The next one will overtake.

Oh! The millions of dreams I had,
The things I held close to heart,
The love I thought will never depart
All are lost along the path
And I have lost myself somewhere

I had friends, am still so proud
But today, alone among the crowd
I was very rich without a penny
Now, just a beggar with lots of money.
I know, I have lost myself somewhere

This is not the 'I' I had always Known
Alas!! I am not myself now
I know, I have lost myself somewhere....
I cannot be myself anymore

O My Friends!!!!

Holding You all, I walked on
In search for Infinity
Where we colored the Rainbow
And made the dream Castle over it

Far in deep dark woods
when you all played the flute
I danced in that symphony
Chanting Songs of our Friendship

In the moonlit night
I had hidden myself in our warm embrace
Then, suddenly under the still sky,
I found my Paradise lost
Engulfed by dark clouds
Where the rainbow never smiles.............

O, My Friends

If you go back to the woods again
And find our moments of togetherness
Somewhere trampled and scattered!
Gather those half-torn sheaves of our dreams
And lay them tenderly

Because we are blessed............

My last stoppage

Past moments never die
It sits silently along some roadside
alive

It too have emotions and desires
Its we who passes by like a traveller
But It keeps waiting for us
like a tree

These lines reflect my emotions
which is sitting along
my last stoppage

"Oh my Love
go Wherever you desire
But take care
And here is one
Who keeps waiting for you"

"Before leaving
There are some moments
Which I got on my way
some are really beautiful
Please check if they belong to you....."


my last stoppage
Where I halted for a while
and thought end of life
But to start again was my fate
and to move on is called life

Hope!!!

Dreams shattered
Heart broke
Faith betrayed
But one thing that is only Built
Hope!!!

Battles Lost
Confidence drowned
Failure overpowers
But one thing that still Motivates
Hope!!!

Relations Shaken
Emotions played with
Charm diminished
But one thing that now Binds
Hope!!!

Hope!!!
That some day My Dreams will be Real
Hope!!!
That some day I will win a Battle
Hope!!!
That some day I will live my relations

Hope!!!
That my Hopes never Die
And If they
.............................................

"??????????????????"

What it is
the loneliness,
in being together ?

What it is
the silence,
in too many words ?

What it is,
to win,
and to lose at victory ?

What it is,
to laugh,
Mock at the tears ?

What it is,
to expect,
and the failure to reach it ?

What it is
in All,
that is Nothing ?

What it is
the Nothing,
that is all ?

How to say, when the heart is stubborn ?
How to write, when the hands are frozen ?
How to embrace, when the love is hidden ?

Whom should I thank ?
-for the life that I have
Or Should I apologise
Perhaps, even why ?

A Tale of two Friends.........

We always think of friends and try to define the term to best of our ability, but we fail to acknowledge that the term has its root deep into heart and its very tough to define the words that come from heart to yourself then how can you define it in words or on paper.

This post describes how two with two different pole attitudes shared such beautiful moments of friendship.

One of the friends is a bit shy, hesitate to look beyond a time, aggressive, intelligent, lazy but is quick and sharp. The other one is not that shy, always try to look beyond a period, not so aggressive, hard working. However both shared a few qualities but they are quite insignificant to mention here.

I am going to mention some of the beautiful moments both shared........

They met first time in Senior secondary school while solving Co-ordinate geometry problem on second row, third bench sometime around mid August. One was solving problem the other was staring at him.

They turned acquaintances in K K Swain tuition, the common factor was both did not have friends in tuition classes and Jyoti master Chemistry brought them bit closer and they started sharing their experiences.

In school they had their moments, it is not that they always roamed together but there was something that always brought them closer.

One of those factors was cricket, both are fans of watching cricket matches so as so that they bunked classes to watch the match in library and were surprised to find each other in same room. Both of them have been caught red handed while watching matches, but they never repented for the punishment they got. That was the first crisis time both faced together.

Both the friends really spent some light moments in school corridors. Both of them studied together sometimes even over phone.

There was a situation when one of the friend's had a fractured leg and the other had just learned to ride a scoot y but admits all risks the latter provided lift to former in order to collect certificate from home that were required for registration, and in lab exam also helped the former in experiments. There was no emotions pertaining to friendship in latter one but he could never define why he was helping the other guy.

To their bad luck they both landed up in the same engineering Institute and that too in same branch and same section. It is not that we sit together in class but they do share the chair while watching cricket matches in common room.

Both the Semesters they both shared light moments especially while moving together for exams. One of them got opportunity to move up into CSE branch while the other one tried hard to gain a slide up and that too while deciding branch to slide up he took the advice of his so called school friend. The latter one did not know what motivated him to act on the suggestion of other, but took the decision.

While attaining a class test, both of them were caught cheating from each other but one of them took the onus. He even got thrashing for that but never opened his mouth. One of them even acted as cousin for other in order to shield him from punishments.

It is not that there were no differences, there were differences. One can never expect such diverse minds to match. Both of them never party ed together, but there is something that binds them together. If this is called friendship, so it is. But it is very hard to define what it is.....