2 steps of life...

Sometimes in life we are just 2 steps away from something that we do not know whether we should be proud of or regret for not taken those two steps. We do not really know what those two steps would have changed our lives. When I sit down in a lonely night thinking of how many those 2 steps I have not taken in my life and how many those 2 steps I leaped forward without thinking and how many I walked through knowing the consequenses, I find a complete mess. Why those 2steps carry such importance? Is it because in the end those are the steps that define us? Its always difficult to know what is there on other end unless those two steps are taken but is it always necessary to know? I do not have answers to any of these questions. Friends say me that you have taken all pain to travel the entire way then why not these last 2 steps.... but I have built an entire beautiful world while I was on my journey. What these last 2 steps will finish my journey and I have to leave behind the beautiful path that I travelled through? Sometimes the path for these last 2 steps is so narrow that its only possible for me only to step through. But we keep taking these 2 steps always in a hope the next time you will not have to. However we forget these 2 steps is always called life and no matter how much you try to avoid you will have to take them.

ln heartbreak warfare!!!

Lightning strike
lnside my chest to keep me up at night

Dream of ways
To make you understand my pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
lt's heartbreak warfare

Once you want it to begin
No one really ever wins
ln heartbreak warfare

lf you want more love
Why don't you say so?
ln heartbreak warfare

The art of Horizon.....

The Picture in this blog is not just another picture. It is something more than that. There are loads of emotions attached with it. The emotions I am talking here is not just of mine but those of many team mates who also contributed to it. This picture was done on my desk's white board at Samsung.

There is an entire one month span of emotions attached with it. I started doing it in the month of December 2010 and kept adding the components as and when things happened in my life.

Many of my teammates wonder, why I always start up drawing the mountains, actually they are my ambitions that I want to climb and rising Sun always consoles me that the day has just started. The birds resemble my love for the freedom. Those who know me, must have come to realize that I am crazy to take on Manager on some target issue, but what I was trying is just to make a statement to him "Do not mingle with my freedom.... ".

The trees on the feet of mountains actually indicates two things. Firstly, how far I am from my goals, secondly, the huge ambitions that I carry. The stream has a lot of relevance. To reach to bottom of mountain, I can either swim upstream or walk along the stream to its point of origin or search for any boat that will help me cover some distance.

Deciding what to do, I was sitting alone on a piece of rock in the beginning of December 2010. Then there entered someone in my life. I came across the fact that there are some reasons for which she would not be in a position to join me, however I was determined, so I thought about the tree, so that I can take some rest until she joins me for the journey ahead.

Then something happened on December 25th, 2010, it was just like I have started believing in existence of Santa Claus. So on December 26, she joined me on the picture and sat beside me.
The flower beside us became part of image when she said a yes.

The royal dine shown had contribution from Shobhit, but I did not mind because that what I was planning. The car was drawn by Deepak Shejpal, which well represents my girl's obsession with cars.

Oh!! I forgot the house that is is on the other side of stream. This is actually our villa, something like our retirement plan with facilities of Cafe Coffee Day serving hot coffee and chocolate sizzler with an extra scoop of ice cream and extra chocolate sauce.

After January, I just got myself ready for the journey ahead and to much of my excitement she is coming with me.

Tomorrow will be a new day at new work place.

I Laugh

I Laugh

But don't know why

Is it that I am really happy,

Is it that I have achieved something,

Is it that I have fulfilled my dreams,

But I don't think this is why

I Laugh

I Laugh

But don't know why

Is it that I am trying to hide something

Is it that I am in great pain

Is it that my tears have dried

Alas! I am still analyzing is this why

I Laugh

I Laugh

But don't know why

Is it that I am helpless

Is it that I am trying to gather some hope

Is it that I am still not defeated

But, I am fighting and this cannot be why

I Laugh

I Laugh, I Laugh and I Laugh

But I don't know Why

I Laugh

Confused,Trapped, Surprised but Encouraged

In the mid of the misery of expectations
In the helplessness, that's called hope
In the warmth of a past that is young,
In a silence, that is lonely, lovely, lively.
But
I am Confused.

Roosting behind doors, half open,
Listening to a quietness,
Awake in the sleeplessness,
when the sun sleeps, surrendered to dreaming.
However
I am Trapped.

Looking up from Screens, looking around
There are people doing the same
smiles waiting to be spilled,
seeing them fighting for a cause,
useless and spoiled
So
I am Surprised.


When love seems a trivia,
When pride says, there's no wisdom in defeat
In the triumph of being fallen, frozen,
And yet, curling and blackening in a flame,
That's ever glowing.....inside.
In a way
I am Encouraged.

I cannot be myself anymore

I cannot be myself anymore

In the name of winning,
In the name of survival,
In the name of practicality,
I have lost myself somewhere...

I'm running fast
I'm running hard
But, am I running in the right path?
I cannot stop to think
The next one will overtake.

Oh! The millions of dreams I had,
The things I held close to heart,
The love I thought will never depart
All are lost along the path
And I have lost myself somewhere

I had friends, am still so proud
But today, alone among the crowd
I was very rich without a penny
Now, just a beggar with lots of money.
I know, I have lost myself somewhere

This is not the 'I' I had always Known
Alas!! I am not myself now
I know, I have lost myself somewhere....
I cannot be myself anymore

O My Friends!!!!

Holding You all, I walked on
In search for Infinity
Where we colored the Rainbow
And made the dream Castle over it

Far in deep dark woods
when you all played the flute
I danced in that symphony
Chanting Songs of our Friendship

In the moonlit night
I had hidden myself in our warm embrace
Then, suddenly under the still sky,
I found my Paradise lost
Engulfed by dark clouds
Where the rainbow never smiles.............

O, My Friends

If you go back to the woods again
And find our moments of togetherness
Somewhere trampled and scattered!
Gather those half-torn sheaves of our dreams
And lay them tenderly

Because we are blessed............